sisters departed out of my life

I am feeling so dejected right now. My siblings are completely either ignoring me or just simply being mean. I feel like I am in the movie “Mean Girls”. They keep passively making comments that hurt or just clearly ignoring me.

What I am learning is that my sisters really do not care that much for me and the rest of my family is unable to care because of their own narcissism.

I am so blessed to have Paul in my life, at least he understands and somewhat knows how I feel.

That does not negate the fact that my sister’s of whom I was extremely close to for 26 years now treat me like a doormat, demoralize me, or ignore me. It isn’t as if we “grew apart” but instead something happened and I can’t figure out what it is. I got married and around the wedding time things got worse but it started before then anyway.

I am not allowed to see my two nieces for some reason. Last year my older sister did that with my brother and I was the only one allowed to watch them but now it has changed. Now I am on the outs and am not allowed to see them. It really confuses me and hurts that I am not allowed to see them.

My younger sister is angry with me for something I guess. Every time I speak with her lately she mentions what a brat, pain in the ass, or just plain “bitchy” I am (as Paul is buying her lunch at a Thai restaurant).

I guess it is the loss of my relationships with my sisters that hurt the most. Not what they say or do, but rather losing the relationship completely.

Ignored

Why does my family only do & see things black or white? I am trying to focus on myself, not my family but Annabelle’s 3rd birthday was today and I have been cut out. They will call Paul and tell Paul about her party tomorrow but they won’t call me.

Since I have been out of the hospital my father has called me once (did not leave a message) and that is it. I don’t want to complain that not a single person has called me at all but at the same time, it hurts. I feel like it proves the worthlessness that I am. They all will talk to Paul and not me.
No one has even asked how I have been, not even a single call, email, text, Skype, nothing. Not a soul in my entire family has asked me how I am doing.
Paul’s family seems different. They seem to at least notice or ask.
Anyway, I hate to Miss Annabelle’s birthday but I don’t think I am invited. I am tired and depressed; I think I am going to go to bed.

Well, Happy Birthday Annabelle, you are always my little princess.

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